Its almost PAX time.

If you’re only interested in what I have to say about PAX then skip this first paragraph.

We’re closing in on quite possibly the most exciting weekend of the year for me, the Penny Arcade Expo. I’ve been eagerly anticipating this since the very minute the last one ended and I’m wholly certain it will live up to all of my expectations and indeed exceed them to some extent as I can never predict how amazing the weekend will be. Yet at the same time I can’t help but feel a little… down. I’m not entirely sure why so I just attribute it to my personality. Over the past five years or so I’ve felt “down” the majority of the time, this being amplified sometimes and excluded during other fleeting moments. I try to force myself to look on the bright side as is said but that only goes so far. I think a major part of it is that i worry about my future. I’m hoping to major in English and possible get a job as a teacher for creative writing or literature in a high school setting because thats what the kids love now a days(/sarcasm). And while I think I will enjoy that and I know I love writing so I’ll be fine in that regard, teachers get sucky pay and have to spend a good amount of their income of supplies for their classes. I’d like to supplement my pay by writing part time for a newspaper or magazine but that wouldn’t really pay much at all, ignoring the fact that I’ve been writing less and less recently(Oh, you noticed that too did ya). While worrying about my future, I try to look forward and imagine myself in a decent environment doing what I enjoy and doing it well, but I don’t see anything. I can’t even imagine myself being slightly successful. Because of my inability to see the future(You’d think that this would be more rare of a trait but you would be surprised) I try to live everyday as I want. I try to have fun and I try to enjoy it though it is tough for the people around me I’m sure. It’s also tough for my future as I prefer fun over responsibility. And now I’m tired of writing about this, why can’t we just discuss something cheerful like PAX for Christ sake.

It’s next weekend, as I may have mentioned earlier, and I couldn’t be more excited. We get to continue the tradition of Bubble Tea and booth babes, free shirts and false idols, and crazy costumes with uncomfortably old men inside of them. I just love this time of the year. Game I am excited for include but are not limited to Guild Wars 2, Torchlight 2, Eve Online(as always), whatever Valve has to offer, the new LotRo expansion(Riders of Rohan, I think), Battlefield 3 which is supposed to be playable in the PC freeplay section, Deus Ex though I’m not sure if it will be there, Skyrim, and I’ll probably find myself hanging around the Hi-Rez and Riot Games booths to see what they have to say. Other then that we’re hoping to catch a few panels, GW2 and Skyrim related things, as well as the LoadingReadyRun panel. We went to that last year and it was great so we’re going to try to make it to their meet-up this time.  Other then that I image we will hit up the Bobachine that is in the area a few times, maybe some Blue C Sushi and some other nice restaurants.

Gah I cannot wait for Friday. I may just spend this whole week in the pool trying to pass the time in this amazing heat. It was 85 degrees out today, as someone who has lived in Seattle their whole life, that is unacceptably hot. My room is almost unbearable by noon as it faces the sun, its an unpleasant way to wake up. I’m thirsty the moment I’m awake and the shower doesn’t really help cool me down. I need some entertainment for the next few days and I think I’m going to try to fill them with writing, cooking, and swimming. Maybe I’ll feel semi-productive. In the name of productivity however, I don’t have anything to say because I’m a lazy bastard. I’ve been meaning to write a couple letters for a few months now. One to Stephen Fry(I think I’ve mentioned this) and one to a girl who I once had a class with. I will write to Stephen one of these days without a doubt, I just need to solidify what I want to say in my mind before putting it down on paper/screen. However I’m not sure what to do with this girl. She’s changing schools so there is a good chance I’ll never see her again which relieves the anxiety/guilt from doing something so odd but at the same time it’s just weird. From what I’ve been told at least. Apparently people don’t write letters to people they only slightly know. Which is odd because I’ve done it several times, I enjoy it actually. I’m much more fluent and expressive through text, and that’s sad. Oh well, I’ll wake up tomorrow and read this and decide if it’s a good idea or not. Or you could tell me, you know, whatever.

Oh, I haven’t said anything about music yet. I’ve been listening to a lot of Metric and Sabrepulse recently. Now that is some similar music. Also I quite like the Jakwob remix of Starry Eyed by Ellie Goulding. Besides that I’m not really sure. If you like video game footage(Mostly of Eve Online) and want to know what I’m listening to(I put music over my recordings so you don’t hear my friends and myself screaming at eachother) then subscribe to me on Youtube(clicky), I put out a video every week or so.

-attle

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